[attr="class","textieno"]He sure was a piece of work, wasn’t he? The following days had been spent doing everything in his power to avoid the situation at hand. This was something that neither of them could be invested in. It was above and beyond their control and should the boss catch wind of it…. They were done for. It took a lot of effort for him to not look for her in a crowd or sniff her out when he was supposed to be doing something else. It also took a lot of will power to keep her completely out of his thoughts when it came to her doing her job. The more he tempted to fight against the bond that grew harder and harder to fight the stronger it became. The more of the urge he had to seek her attention and affection. More anguish was only at the end of this journey that they were to set sail on and he wasn’t sure, he as a human, could handle much more.[break]
He still dealt with scars from his last deep relationship with someone and he was positively sure this would be no different. There wasn’t a happy ending for him. Not with what he did for a living and not of course dealing with a monster that lived inside him that absolutely strived for destruction. The wolf wanted Lucia gone more so than ever now. He too fought the bond with rabid snarls and more of a fight to gain control. The bond that was forced upon them by their cruel goddess certainly stuck a restraint he no longer wished to be tied down to. He was plotting. He could feel it.[break]
However the night didn’t intend like he intended it to. Instead he was forced yet again to track down the very feline he was trying to stay away from. She was not in her bed that night at lights out. He paused at the opening of where they had shared their night at for a long time. Staring down at the stairs until the disappeared beneath the murky shadows. Did she plan this? Did she know he would come and she was going to ambush him down here? Not that he couldn’t fight her off if that were the case but for some reason this gave him chills. Could he really hurt Lucia? And once more if it wasn’t some sort of scheme to get him down there but would his wolf behave in such a confined space? Swallowing hard he started down the steps, mission in mind that this was a job and that was it. He hardened his features ready to face whatever it was she was going to throw at him but once he reached the bottom of the steps the room was empty. [break]
Voices – their voices could be heard coming from the long winding and shadowy corridor that got them in this mess in the first place. He was cautious listening to the words that echoed and bounced as joyous laughter filled the space. He moved through the shadows slow with a hand sliding along the stone wall to keep him balanced and light on his feet until he reached the end of the where he was greeted by the glow of the pools. He saw her, sitting there.[break]
He didn’t want to speak; honestly, he didn’t know if he really could with how tight his throat was feeling. He knew she would be angry if anything at how he avoided her, how he didn’t want to see her after such a very special and tender moment he hadn’t shared with anyone else in such a very long time. His heart was racing and pounding against his chest cavity, so hard in fact it was beginning to hurt. ”Why’d you come back here.” his voice was void of the emotion that was threatening to come out if he continued to speak. It was going to slip out if she said one more word. He didn’t move towards her or away but instead just stood there… eyes pointed now at the pool that started to form another series of imagery. A voice his own that cried in desperation.. fear… and pain. Words he had never remembered honestly saying. ”I can’t control it, Lucia” the sound of his voice was utterly defeated as it echoed off the walls over the cavern. ” Why can’t you see that?” the sound made him close his eyes as now her voice from the pool shot back at his in an echo of defiance and determination. ”Whatever tomorrow brings, just know I’ll always be here.”[break]

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[attr="class","textieno"]Her words were not spoken in true Lucia form. There was no sarcasm or malice behind them instead it seemed that they dipped into a lulled void of emotion. He supposed his shouldn’t care but the more he fought with the emotion the more he found he couldn’t turn it off. Her next question though tended to be a little more nerve hitting. He gave a small sound of discontent at her set of words. ”would you like to state the obvious here? I’m a terrible person. I get it.” He crossed his arms over his chest in a defensive way. ”But wasn’t it you who said we couldn’t do anything with it anyways?”[break]
He continued to stare at her now watching the pool of light reflect off of her. He could see the scars on her and it caused his jaws to tighten nearly hearing his teeth crack in his skull from the pressure he bit down. His blood boiled in a way he was unfamiliar with. It wasn’t just possessive it was a type of boil that held a territorial sting to it. The expression that broke on his face spoke of murderous intentions though he wouldn’t voice this to her. It was his fault anyways this happened. He should have been there. ”It doesn’t help but I’m sorry….” it was obvious that there was a mental conflict going on in his head. One in which that only he could figure out but it would evidently take time for him to process. He didn’t want to hurt her like he almost did Eriu and Wren because in the end it was inevitable. It would happen…. And if it did happen…. Would he be able to regain control before fully losing her?[break]
”I’m just scared, Lucia.” he finally admitted attempting to take a step forward. ”You scare me. this scares me.” It wasn’t necessarily her persay it was more of what was going on. This bond that they had was something that was above their control. It was something supernatural and written in the stars. ” I don’t know if I can control myself around you.” He wished she could see it, he wished she could see he wasn’t trying to hurt her. His battle was with himself and not her but even so, he still daringly moved in closer until the point he was literally right next to her.[break]
He was hesitant knowing well the backlash of this consequence could be devastating but he was willing to take the risk. Now that he was closer the scars were far more evident and a growl was slithering up his throat again. ”Which one?” His eyes remained pointed at the scars letting her know exactly what he was meaning before they moved back up to her eyes. No. She didn’t always need his protection she wasn’t breakable but she was still his.

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[attr="class","textieno"]Her words were encouraging the wolf, fueling the hatred he had for the feline. Blue eyes stayed on her a she continued to rant and rave for whatever reason. To be honest he didn’t come here to argue. So he let her continue let her say whatever she thought needed to be said. Through most of it he had wanted to say a couple of things but he refrained from doing so. He took every word she said quietly like a whipping boy. Though once she was through and got what she needed to off her chest, was when he decided to speak. ”We are but let’s get one thing straight here. Don’t tell me I can’t apologize just because you don’t want to hear it. I’m apologizing because I am sorry.” He never used the word sorry lightly. If he said it, he meant it. ”I am also sorry for going by the impression you gave me. I fucked up and I get that but you are the one who made it seem, to me at least, that it wasn’t even worth trying.” There was no hatred seething in his words but they were stern and truthful. ” I am being blamed for avoiding because it’s true, I did. That is my fault for not clearing things up but you left me with the impression you didn’t want it. So all I was left to do was stamp those feelings into the ground and try to forget about this fucking mated bond!” He had a feeling nothing he did would actually ever be right. He was damned if he did something and he was damned if he didn’t.[break]
”And still STILL it has gotten me nowhere but chasing my tail like a domesticated dog.” Frustration was creeping in now. He wanted to grab her and shake her to get her to understand but he refrained from doing so. Instead he did grab her by the shoulder to force her to look at him and turn her body towards him. He looked her directly in the eyes as he spoke now. ” When I came to you telling you these things I felt shot down. What was I supposed to do with that? It felt like you only even fucked me to get me to shut up. Why do you think I didn’t say anything after that?” he watched her. ”It’s a hopeless feeling and all I could do was just silently agree with you. So I thought if I could just get away from it; it would go away but it didn’t. Instead I felt what I could only explain as is a love sick fever. I found myself aching because you weren’t around. I found myself wondering what you were doing. Sick to my stomach thinking about who you could be with. Longing to hear your voice, smell your scent, touch you.” He closed his eyes feeling his head start to pound with the build of stress. He rubbed the side of his head with his hand. He didn’t know what she wanted from him now. He didn’t know what to do. He did what he thought he should have but even that was wrong. ”I never once said you weren’t scared. I know you are and you may not have meant it the way those last words sounded. Possibly. I don’t know. I am not you so I can’t speak for you but it was how I took it.”[break]
His hand dropped and for a moment eyes drift from her and towards the pool. The waters was eerily calm as though it were listening to every word they said. He licked his lips for a moment and spoke up once more ”I know I should have asked questions. I should have done a lot of damn things but I didn’t and I am just…. Sorry.” He didn’t know what else to say other than sorry. He had no way to make it up to her not like she would probably let him anyways but he knew one thing for sure, nothing would be the same between them. Whether she took his words or she didn’t and tossed them back at him in spite…. They would never be the same.[break]
”I don’t know what you want from me or what else I can even say. It is what it is I guess but if you want to leave it here right at this very second and try and be done with it. Fine. I can’t take away your anger or being hurt but do know it was never my honest intention to. I don’t want to hurt you, Lucia. Try as I might…. it looks like I honestly did it anyways.” He looked at her a little harder for a moment in quiet consideration before he lifted to his feet again out of his crouched position. That was his last bit of piece and she could do what she wanted with it. He backed off from her however waiting for her to either just lift to her feet and start back out or say some other snotty remark. Or both. To be honest he wasn’t sure which one would come first. Either way he stood there ready for it.

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[attr="class","textieno"]The way she received him was very unsual as he expected some sort of cat like outburst. For the years he had known her she had never been the type to just back down but more or less one that held grudges. He could almost see the pissed off cat with ears lain back and tail wildly whipping back and forth. But this vision wasn’t what had met him and to say the least it was relieving. He wasn’t sure he could handle much more spite. He could already feel himself wanting to shut down and back off entirely but it was the wolf making him feel this way. The wolf was laying in waiting for Felix to feel secure again so he could spring and choke the poor woman. He had nearly succeeded multiple times with the only three women Felix had chosen to be close to.[break]
She stilled him though before he could move any further away by grabbing his pant leg and started speaking again. Her words comforting to know she had wanted the same and yet heart breaking because he had put her in this position. He had never confessed to be a prince charming. He would inevitably hurt her again and probably many times after that but seeing her laying her soul bare to him was crushing. She steadily stood to her feet though there was space between them as she started to explain that she didn’t want him to leave her and that she wanted to be happy and to give it a try. He knew it was going to be hard. Between his nature of being possessive and hers… they were going to clash. He stepped in closer to her breaking the barrier that was between them as a hand steadily grabbed her own and tugged on her meeting her half way to press his lips into her own. After a moment he broke their connection and leaned his forehead into hers, eyes closed for a moment. He felt the restless urges of his wolf and he did his best to simmer them down for the time being. ”I’m not perfect. I’m going to fuck up.” he said quietly before finally looking at her. ”But my feelings for you will never change. My desire for you to be mine will always be the same.” His hand lifted as he rubbed his thumb over her cheek watching her with an affectionate gaze. ”I need you.”[break]
It was stunning at how true those words were and how easily they just rolled off of his tongue with ease. The wolf didn’t like how truthful that was and how truthful this cat was making him feel. The fur was bristled beneath his skin and he could feel the sharp fangs in his mouth itching to bite into flesh. No matter the bond the wolf fought against it and the wolf wanted it gone. His grip tightened a little on her hand as jaws clamped down on top of each other to keep them from ripping open and snapping shut on Lucia. ”This is going to be a long road…..” he said quietly. He had to back his head up a bit and force his hand to let go of hers. His eyes clearly showed the bits of yellow that were fighting to come through. He breathed through his nose. ”I hope you are ready for a bumpy ride.”

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[attr="class","textieno"]That kiss was something that sent his mind and body reeling but they weren’t going in the same direction. Instead his body was reacting outwardly, pushing against his will of wanting to be close to her because the wolf was irritated. His mind was reveling. He finally had gotten the cure to his love sick madness. All it could focus on was the taste of her lips, the feel of her fingers on his skin that wanted to dissipate beneath her fingers. He needed her and his heart and mind knew he did but his body wasn’t on the same page. Almost as if his hand had a mind of its own it tightened around hers in a squeeze as the wolf roughly pushed against his skin to the surface. He could feel him slamming hard against a wall that was barely budging with his force. He knew it was coming and he knew who the target was. His mate. The wolf’s mate.[break]
He pulled back a little bit and forced his hand to let go of her own. Gold sparked against blue as he spoke and Lucia though getting a clue didn’t move away from him. It was comforting. ”That wouldn’t suit our lifestyle.” he said giving the corners of his lips a nice tug upwards. it was funny how the mate bond seemed to power him – even if his wolf was against it. It gave him a reason for being and that being something not work related. He wanted to bask in the glory of her touch but it was almost as if it was too much for him right now. The wolf was fighting to the surface and he was steadily losing the drive to keep him back. Emotions were such a weakness and the wolf used it to his advantage. As happy as he were that things were settled between him and Lucia, that fear still sat in him like a growing seed. The fear was going to eat him alive and the wolf was trying to help it. Lucia wasn’t safe. Larkin wasn’t safe. No one was. One day he would get out and he wouldn’t go back to the shadows.[break]
He didn’t try to keep his eyes on hers though merely because he knew the change that was happening and there wasn’t a thing he could do about it. The wolf wouldn’t let him do anything. Let him speak and for warn her that he was breaking loose. He was breaking the chains that binned him to his human prison. The gold was fighting to get through. He could feel the fur bristling; muscles began stiffening as she moved in closer to kiss him on the cheek asking softly if he was okay.[break]
Eyes were shut now as shoulders smoothly lowered and a different calm air of confidence took the place of the more tense posture he once held. He stood there for a moment in silence and then almost as if a pop bottle busted he rushed on her. Grabbing her slender throat in his hand he tightened. Golden eyes completely filled over the blue. ”Why did you have to go and do that!?” He tone was cool and calm despite the words being spoke in a very hate filled manner. With a harsh hold on her throat he backed her up and extended his arm out right on the edge of the pool to where her balance would be off kilter. ”You are forcing my hand, Lucia.” he said quietly tsking at her. ”You should have walked away. I was hoping you would have cause then maybe I would have liked you.” A soft snarl was erupting from his throat as he back her a little more forcing her to lean backwards on her legs were forced to bend to keep on the ledge. He could feel the human tugging back now. ”I’m coming for you.” He said softly with a malicious grin on his face and with that he let go causing Lucia to drop backwards. He stepped back as the water splashed upwards and in an instant he headed out of the cavern.

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